A Week Left

It's gonna be august on monday.. another month gone by, another month comes in.. next thing we know, it's already christmas season.. time flies by so fast..

yes it sure is! he has 1 week left in the country. but before that, he's going to celebrate his birthday on wednesday (yehey! advance happy birthday!). a while ago, i thought of going to daraga by bus tonight (coz i was not in the mood of going home and to avoid 1 of my sisters because of her immaturity last week) just to see & spend time w/ him and his family. unfortunately, i have lots to do this weekend - tons of clothes for laundry (should be clean by sunday night since i'm gonna be at bulacan again next week), i have to be at school by 7 am on monday, and dad's arrival from guam tomorrow morning. i couldn't think of any alibis on not going home to las pinas.

long distance relationships are so tough! it really takes strong faith, enduring trust, and never ending love for it to survive. but i'm pretty confident we'll overcome this. by the time we're together, we'll be the happiest people alive on earth.

Internship

the applications are already here. i've already asked and paid for 2 copies of my transcript of records.

i'm now thinking of 3 possible hospitals to go to after april 2006. well, keeping my fingers crossed that i pass revalida and graduate on time. those 3 are Medical City, UP-PGH, and NKTI.

presently, i consider myself as a neophyte or baby at the hospital. since only 2 of the hospitals are non-teaching, i am beginning to wonder if i can really face the challenges of deciding (for my patients) on my own, without the close supervision of a resident, and the existence of (gulp!) litigation issues.

i'm having butterflies in my stomach.

our song

How Did You Know

I remember so well
The day that you came into my life
You asked for my name
You had the most beautiful smile
My life started to change
I'd wake up each day feeling alright
With you right by my side
Makes me feel things will work out just fine

How did you know
I needed someone like you in my life
That there was an empty space in my heart
You came at the right time in my life
I'll never forget
How you brought the sun to shine in my life
And took all the worries and fears that I had
I guess what I'm really trying to say
It's not everyday that someone like you comes my way
No words can express how much I love you

missing him still

the clock is ticking.. time is flying so fast..

he has 2 weeks left in the country.. then, he's off to UK..

we barely see each other.. last time we met was on the last week of may and first few days of june.. worse, i was assigned then at the "most toxic" rotation of medical clerkship (which is internal medicine).. i had this risk not to go to the hospital just for 1 day to be with him - on his last day here in manila before he goes home to bicol.. but i can't.. conscious dictates me i have to be there by 7 am for two good reasons - one, we're presenting a case later that day, and we're on 24-hr duty.. the following morning, he was on his way to bicol by plane.. i fought my tears.. i don't want to cry (in front of many people inside the ER).. i was in pain..

for almost two months, we've been talking through texts and calls.. just like before.. no change.. (well, except for the fact that we're on the same time zones there was no reason for me to do simple arithmetic..).. we've been yearning for each other's company a lot.. dreaming for the moments when we'll be together again.. cheesy as it may sound but don't blame us.. we're madly in love with each other.. come to think of it, we already thought of the big M.. if ever he asks me 1 very important question, i won't hesitate in giving my sweet reply..

it's very unfortunate for the both of us that we'll spend fewer moments together on the day of his departure (august 6).. starting tomorrow, i'm assigned somewhere at san jose del monte, bulacan 'till august 15.. we go there from school monday morning and head back saturday afternoon.. so how many hours are we left with?.. how many hours is he required to be in the airport prior to the departure time of his plane?.. damn!.. this really sucks!..

how i wish farnborough and manila are just kilometers away..

sigh...

electives

i'm on my 3rd week of elective rotation now.

first, it was family medicine. it was an extension of medicine out patient department but the cases were lighter - ranging from simple colds to low back pain. the residents were lax, and so was the time. yet it was so advanced by 25 minutes. meaning, i had to be at the hospital by 6:40 (on my watch) just to time-in (using that oh-so-weird clock). but after that, i can go out and have my breakfast. as early as 11, we are dismissed for our lunch break. as early as 4, we can leave for the day. simple as that! no worries..

then, it was psychiatry. i was startled, anxious, scared to talk to patients for the first time, esp on the first day. our task was simple - get the mental status exam and that's it! for the rest of the day, listen to lectures, attend conferences, go to the OPD. as days went by, i found it amazing to converse with them (even if my goal was to assess their mental state for the day). i don't feel pity for them. instead, i learned their human beings looking for someone to talk to, to understand them, to listen to them even if their thought process and content is so out of this world, irrelevant to their intellectual capacity. i can't wait when i go to my regular rotation here sometime next year.

now i'm on rehabilitation medicine. supposedly this should be an easy one for me considering that my pre-med was physical therapy. surprisingly, i found myself adjusting, being bombarded by lots of paperworks, stuffs to study. weird eh? maybe because i almost forgot the practice since i was absorbed in my medical studies for more than 3 years now. oh well, there's always time and room to refresh myself and review the concepts. it's just 8 days anyway.

next week will be radiology. i wonder how's it gonna be..